To my friends,

I've been thinking and talking about Shame a lot this week, because it's been creeping up on me without my realizing it (as it always does), and I start to feel pretty shitty, and then I finally realize that all those nasty thoughts I'm having is Shame talking, not me, and I say "Shame! What are you doing here again?" And it says:

"GOTCHA!!!"

Every single fucking time.

And so it goes. Love,

Whitney
02/08/2014 12:25pm

I get that feeling sometimes, but have not associated it with shame. I will reflect on this. I like the line about friendship, "and that is the best."

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Elizabeth Leeis
02/27/2014 1:12am

I feel this way a few times each week, and it drives me crazy! I say something that seemed weird had an awkward interaction and it eats me up inside. That creepy feeling will even come up months later just thinking about the interaction! It's definitely a worthless feeling and I try to let it go, definitely need to keep letting it go. Thank you for your insights and for sharing!

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06/04/2014 9:02pm

Thanks Bethy! I know how that feels to think of something way after the fact and still feel embarrassed! I'm glad to know I'm not the only one...
Love you!!

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06/02/2014 4:16am

Omgsh, Whitney! Thank you so much for sharing this. I hate this feeling so, so, so much. It comes to me a couple of times a week. It's exactly how you said and Elizabeth. A little TMI: I used to struggle with depression and one day I decided I was going to be happy and poof, my depression was gone like that. It seems like it'll be gone forever. But I used to smoke weed occasionally and for some reason this "shame: piece of shit feeling" came so strongly every time I got high. I wasn't sure if it was because I did such a good job of getting rid of it in my daily life that it had to find its way in somehow. Or, if it's still here but I've mastered kicking its ass when I'm sober. It was so strange because I used to associate being high with happy emotions and suddenly every time, that shame would come instantly. When I started studying tarot last year I could tell that it was destructive to my intuition so I stopped completely. I loved the ending of the video. I discovered that's my best way to talk myself out of shame...love letters to myself. They really never fail.

Thanks for being so honest. I'm glad to know you!

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06/04/2014 9:01pm

Kristina-

Thanks for your input! It is always good to know I'm not the only one who struggles, and I'm really glad to hear that things are going better for you. I'm so curious about how you decided to be happy and it worked just like that! I do hear from some friends that weed gives them anxiety rather than relaxation. And I love the idea of love letters!!

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